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  • Writer's pictureVictoria Quinn

"A cat walked over and greeted me..."

Rose-Colored Lenses (a Self-Reflection Series)


A cat walked over and greeted me with a sweet, high-pitched voice as I sit here at Café Marina, 8:27am. Walking over here, I had told an elderly woman, “Tu mira mucho (de) mi abuela…su nombre fue Rosita.” She had a warm smile, said some things I didn't quite catch in its entirety, and we wished each other a good morning.


This cat now just jumped from a pot behind me - and has a striking resemblance to my late cat Obi Wan Kenobi, born on Easter. Funny enough, he was already named that at the shelter that I had gone to back in October 2022. I was about to choose a cuddly black cat named Leah. The cat shelter volunteer came over and said something like, “I know you might be set on Leah, but there’s one cat I'd like you to meet. Let me introduce you to Obi Wan Kenobi.” Immediately I thought, Oh no...I think this is the cat. Within a minute of meeting him, he hopped onto my lap. My family had a cat we named Skywalker when I was a preteen.


I had a riveting conversation with a friend yesterday, and later on she saw two, simultaneous firework displays while on her balcony - confirmation. It’s inspiring to know that we’re helping set up future generations for success. A woman near me is wearing a shirt that says, “Evolve Grow Repeat” with butterflies.


After leaving a friend yesterday, I rode on a combi with a woman wearing a shirt saying, “Less fear / More love”. My friend recalled what I had said in a podcast about identifying when we make decisions that come from fear versus love. Is our heart in the right place?


I’m learning not to be so anxious when I look up and already see someone looking at me - quantum physics is everywhere. When we realize that everything and everyone is an extension of our own consciousness, then we realize that we are just constantly observing parts of ourselves. Do we feel comfortable being watched - by ourselves - all the time? Naturally I want to say no. Then there’s the question, “Well, what do you have to hide, Victoria?” A secret, apparently. Lol. If there’s something that we can’t hide, it’s energy.


Is the judgement that we feel from others justified? If we fear other's judgment, then likely it’s due to being in a current, energetic state that doesn’t reflect our natural self. A tell-tale sign is discomfort. What can you do, in the moment, to make yourself comfortable again? How do you bring yourself back to enjoying the present? My friend mentioned that he likes to find and focus on one thing in his surroundings that he is grateful for as that brings him back to conscious awareness. A woman passed by wearing a shirt with "LOVE" in gigantic print. This cat is so darn cute.


A couple months ago, while I was going through a pretty intense period, a little girl came up to me as I was playing darts and gave me a red, evil eye bracelet. I noticed on the combi today that a few people were wearing red, evil eye bracelets, and I asked them for a photo of all of ours. “Puedo tomar una foto de nuestras pulseras?” They responded very kindly. A little girl giggled with her mom about it. It makes me happy spreading happiness. A social contagion.



I looked up the origination of the tradition of evil eye bracelets in Mexico, and read swiftly that it dates back to Plato (and likely further) – 'someone can be bewitched or cursed with just a look or a sound of the voice'. Walking over here I stepped over a broom on the ground. Observing synchronicities feels like witnessing magic.


Someone had told me that, during the European witch trial era, the local government would scout out widows or single women with large acres of land, put them on trial, murder them, and then take over their real estate. I'd say that's a justifiable reason for haunting someone.


I woke up this morning around 4am and spent some time focused on my breathing, practicing prayer like a daily check-up. I counted the seconds of each inhale and exhale for a while, remembering James Nestor’s research about the five-second meditation and its significance in ancient Buddhist, Hindu, and Christian practices. There is a sweet spot of homeostasis just in our breath. I found the quotes about this from his book Breath, but I may just write these into an article.


It takes a lot of effort consciously to deprogram mentally from a Roman Catholic upbringing. Growing up, I learned that, if I ask God for anything at all, it’s for strength to overcome and pull through whatever troubling situation I’m in. How ironic is that - to ask God for something like fame, material goods, physical beauty, or status.


I lied in bed and breathed to feel the feeling of universal consciousness within myself. What it feels like to me is a union of the heart and mind, which creates a perfect blend of love and truth. Not an overly active, distracted, stressed mind, and not a clenched, scared, closed-off heart. I've been able to feel these unpleasant feelings as well, which is why I spend so much time meditating on a daily basis. Balance. The cat came over and is now sitting at the front of my table. I felt so at peace from the meditation session this morning that I surprised myself by waking up from a nap, haha.


I also said some words today to send loving messages to the water in my body, since water responds to our thoughts and words. I said “love”, “gratitude”, “blessings”, “strength”, and “miracles”. Some of these words I repeated. I practiced centering my ego healthily with qi by distancing myself from the energies of anyone whom I felt was occupying my mental space.


Today has been a great day so far. I looked up and saw a hummingbird. It’s definitely due to the practices this morning. 9:44am.



 

Behind rose-colored lenses are the secrets of our subconsciousness.


I have created this series of self-reflection writings, 'Rose-Colored Lenses', to show how challenging it can be to make inner peace a daily discipline. Our external reality can sometimes be overwhelmingly polarizing. Also, my middle name is Rose, and I wanted to make it punny.


I think that we do ourselves a disservice when we pretend that everything works out for us all the time. Why do we choose to hide our vulnerability, which is beautiful?


Vulnerability is one of my greatest weaknesses. Paradoxically, courage is one of my greatest strengths.


Personally, I am embarking on this series to test, and "check", myself - which I have a habit of doing anyway. I tend to dive head-first into uncomfortable situations, and quite often. But then I get to reap the reward of wisdom from a learned experience.


I hope that my vulnerability helps anyone who may benefit from it.


Authenticity is liberating!

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